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z3ro666 is actually on AIM for once. I've been wanting to chat with this guy for, oh, six months or so, but he's never been online the same time I am. (Either that, or he's been invisible.) Except he's been away for, like, half an hour, and I'm heading to bed in a couple minutes. Bummer.

Yeah, watch him randomly read this entry and wonder if he needs to be worried about some psycho stalker fat chick now. I swear I'm nothing to worry about, Adam, I just like to think that I'd be able to actually have an interesting conversation with a guy who has little in common with myself, you know?

*hides under the covers*

Oh, and I finally finished X-Men Evolution. Happiness! Though I'm not sure I completely liked Kurt's characterization, and Spike annoyed me at the beginning. But, hey, I WATCHED IT. That makes me happy.

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You ever get a thought in your head that you really don't want, but it keeps tickling at you on and off?

I've got a friend who I eat lunch with sometimes. Not regularly, and it's not a planned thing -- we just run into each other at the dining hall and sit together due to some unspoken "Hey, I know you" agreement or something. And really, I say friend, but I'm not quite sure, as we don't really hang out unless it's at Whimsicality Club or everyone's going to a movie or something. He's more outgoing than I am and stuff.

Anyway, when we eat together we end up not really talking. I'm horrible at making conversation, and with most people I get very nervous when there's no talking. Awkward silence makes Sarah just a little jumpy. I don't know about him; either he's uncomfortable too, or he's okay with it, or something. He just doesn't talk much.

Right, well, the point (yes, I finally got to it!) is that I think I have a slight crush on him. Very small, barely noticeable, but there all the same. And probably maybe it's just wishful thinking, but sometimes I wonder if he likes me too. Probably not.

This thought's been following me around for the past hour, since I got back from lunch (guess who I was eating with). I don't know if I want it to be true or not. One the one hand, it would be kind of cool, because he's not a bad guy, and he's pretty cute to boot. But on the other hand, every time I've had a crush on or gotten involved with a guy I considered a friend, it turned into a disaster.

I'm not sure. I don't dislike him, and that's all I can say for certain. It could go either way.