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Suck: I had to stay an extra half hour at work.
Win: I got to see Lauren, Zac, Oz, and Nick, and there was this guy wearing a totally awesome cheeseburger hat who handed me a note for his order, which amused me.
I've realized something: kissing kind of freaks me out.
Don't get me wrong, I like kissing. It's generally pleasant, especially if the other person hasn't been eating something nasty in the last half hour or so. The problem is that (a) whenever tongue gets involved, it gets messy and kinda slimy, and there's a lot of mashing of lips and teeth poking into tender places, and (b) I don't like having my face that close to another person's face. It feels like a giant invasion of my personal space. I usually end up closing my eyes, which sometimes pisses the other person off, and then I keep wanting to close them again or turn my head or push the guy away when he stops kissing me and then hovers a couple inches in front of my face. It seriously makes me uncomfortable. I don't know if it's because the proximity just freaks me out, or if I just don't want them that close because I'm afraid it makes me look even uglier or what, but I honestly can't stand that. It gets me really flustered. And they all do it (and by all, I mean the five or six guys I've kissed over six years), so I feel like a tool for not being able to handle it. I feel stupid for wanting to say "Hey, don't do that, I don't like it" when it's probably such a little thing to everyone else. I mean, what loser doesn't like kissing, right?
Win: I got to see Lauren, Zac, Oz, and Nick, and there was this guy wearing a totally awesome cheeseburger hat who handed me a note for his order, which amused me.
I've realized something: kissing kind of freaks me out.
Don't get me wrong, I like kissing. It's generally pleasant, especially if the other person hasn't been eating something nasty in the last half hour or so. The problem is that (a) whenever tongue gets involved, it gets messy and kinda slimy, and there's a lot of mashing of lips and teeth poking into tender places, and (b) I don't like having my face that close to another person's face. It feels like a giant invasion of my personal space. I usually end up closing my eyes, which sometimes pisses the other person off, and then I keep wanting to close them again or turn my head or push the guy away when he stops kissing me and then hovers a couple inches in front of my face. It seriously makes me uncomfortable. I don't know if it's because the proximity just freaks me out, or if I just don't want them that close because I'm afraid it makes me look even uglier or what, but I honestly can't stand that. It gets me really flustered. And they all do it (and by all, I mean the five or six guys I've kissed over six years), so I feel like a tool for not being able to handle it. I feel stupid for wanting to say "Hey, don't do that, I don't like it" when it's probably such a little thing to everyone else. I mean, what loser doesn't like kissing, right?