Oh joy! Angst!

[amadeupname]

Every time I start to like someone as more than a friend, things go wrong for me. He's too far away and can't afford to come over, he's a nutcase, he doesn't like me -- I don't think I've ever had a relationship, or even a potential relationship, work to my advantage.

Which is why I'm trying desperately to squash these feelings and say nothing to him, or anyone else (at least nothing specific). It's bad enough that I've admitted it to myself. If I say it out loud -- if I say "I like ****" and tell him the truth, I will end up screwing myself over. So I'm just going to keep my mouth shut and try concentrate on other things, like that quilt I'm supposed to be working on, or the story I'm trying to rewrite.

Also, after getting up at seven for the past week, I now can't stay up past 12:30, and I keep waking up at 8:00. And I'm tired enough to want to fall asleep in this chair right now. Fuck.

Comments

[hidden-now5.livejournal.com]

Or or or or or...you can bring it up, right to his face, and then watch the panic strewn his face!

See, no one ever expects it. You come up (in person, the only way it should work) and be all "Sup, I totally want you!" and i guarentee the first words out of his mouth will be "..........Ok.....", and then you receive verbal confirmation of an acception (like the one you might get, never know) or a rejection (like the one I'm going to get by going after library girl (this has been a recent developement btw)!)

[thesaneminority.livejournal.com]

I kind of had to bring it up over the phone, since I won't be seeing him until (hopefully) the tenth, and he already knew anyway because I'm apparently the most obvious person on the planet.

What library girl?

[hidden-now5.livejournal.com]

ah ok, then screw that plan. sounds like something worked out anyway. so congratulations!

and library-girl is the first crush i've had in a long time. it's a mild one, so i'm giving it a few weeks to fizz out. but not before i have some fun with it ;)

[thesaneminority.livejournal.com]

Good luck with that, Jimmy!

[yowamushi.livejournal.com]

Ahh so his name has four letters. No, i'm not trying to figure out who it is.

[thesaneminority.livejournal.com]

You wouldn't know him anyway. And his nickname (which I never call him by) has four letters, not his full name. And anyway, it all went well and such, so hurrah!

[yowamushi.livejournal.com]

hurray!