I don't have friends; I have heralds.

[amadeupname]

I guess it was stupid to post about what I did last weekend; however, I assumed that, having a filter set up so that only those I wanted to read woult be able to read, I was safe.

Thank you, Jennie/ladyamda, for proving me wrong.

I filtered it because I knew you were not supportive of the idea of premarital sex. I filtered it because I knew you'd have problems with it and would do something. But I counted you as my friend, and I honestly did not think that you would stoop so low.

You have no right to tell THE ENTIRE LUNCH TABLE about such things. Yes, it's in my Livejournal. That doesn't mean I want you to tell the whole fucking school. That means, actually, that I trust you with this information, and that I feel you are capable of handling it and not spreading it around. Thanks for effectively condemning me as a whore and lecturing me, bitch. Please, do forget that you do many more things than I do that disappoint your parents, and I neither lecture nor tell everybody. I treat you as a friend, and you have backstabbed me.

You've also proven yourself to be a hypocrite. You talk about sex, write about sex, and look at yaoi. Yet, when I go through with having sex, you jump down my throat. I fail to see how that behavior is consistent with past actions, and how you are to be considered my friend.

This is now going to be a friends only journal. Jennie, you have until Monday, September 13, to reply to me via LJ, and then I am removing you from my friendslist, and to contact me you will have to IM me or email me. Frankly, I don't want to hear from you unless you are to explain yourself, apologize, compromise, or any combination of the three.

Am I not allowed to enjoy myself? Please, tell me, I'd love to know. I found someone who's physically attracted to me, someone I actually like in more than a "Oh, he's sorta cute" way, and we acted upon that. Safely. We took every cautionary measure possible. It's none of your business what I do, anyway. Even if I had left the entry available to you, there was nothing forcing you to read it. You could have very well left it alone, ignored it, and let me be.

So again, thank you so very fucking much, you horrible bitch, for shattering my trust and treating me like dog shit.

Oh, and Chelsey, as yours was the account Jennie used to read the filtered entry, I suggest you change your password. Obviously, Jennie will go to any length to betray.

Comments

[ladyamda.livejournal.com]

My my my... What, pray tell, do you have to be so angry about? That, by the way, isn't supposed to be a kitten face. It's more of a happy blushy face. And it's there to show that I'm hardly affected by all of this and to piss people off further.

I dare say that by your reaction, it has worked.

Also, if you're going to use the word 'gay', please use it in correct context. It's highly offensive and discriminatory. Plus the fact that it makes you sound like a fool.

[evil-dori54.livejournal.com]

Yeah, right, I just said "gay" so I can insult gay people everywhere and be foolish...even though gay technically means "happy" or "silly." But whatever.

And it's both a blushing face and a kitty face. I've seen it enough times as a cat face to know.

[ladyamda.livejournal.com]

Yeah. Whatever. Sorry, but I just get peeved at people who use that word. It's overused, you know? May be just me...

I've never known it as a kitty face... I would use this >^.^< as a kitty face, but I never find a use for it.

[evil-dori54.livejournal.com]

Not everything is as discriminating and hateful as it seems, and I wasn't out to insult a specific group in society. Gay originally means "happy" or "silly," and I just assumed that other people knew that, too. I don't even use the word that often. If people out there used it to be hateful on purpose, that's a reason to get angry, but I wasn't aiming towards that. I'll just use "silly" next time, then.

Well, I'm sorry if the word offended you, but you need to lighten up a bit. If you keep taking things this little so seriously and think everything needs to work some certain way, you're not going to enjoy life for what it is.

[ladyamda.livejournal.com]

It's hard to tell how you're using it over the internet. When I can't hear a voice, I'm not sure how people are really feeling.

But anyway, you apologized so... there's no reason to argue over that any further.

[kchanzeal.livejournal.com]

For one, the =^.^= emicon is a kitty face. That's what it's known for.

Two, that's really very mature of you, posting it just to piss people off. It makes me wonder about the rest of your post.

Three, don't be offensive and discriminatory if you're going to lecture other people about being so.

Bitcher, bitch at thyself.

[ladyamda.livejournal.com]

I guess it could be, but I've never seen it like that. Have an open mind! It could be many things!

I may be being offensive, but how am I being discriminatory?

Oh, and if you're wondering about my maturity, I'm wondering just the same about you. 'Bitcher, bitch at thyself.'? I could very easily turn that around and aim it at you, as you are doing a bit of ranting yourself.

[kchanzeal.livejournal.com]

I'm only trying to protect my friend because I love her. She is one of the sweetest people I know. Frankly, you disgust me. You're trying way too hard to be impressive. I'm also done because I don't feel like turning this into a full blown flame war. I'm hoping you will do the same.

[ladyamda.livejournal.com]

Right. I agree with you. I have several other tasks to complete so I really don't want this to turn into a war either. Especially since I don't know you.
I'm sure Sarah would be glad to know that she has such caring friends.

[the-rpgenius.livejournal.com]

Seeing how you've treated her as a "friend," I highly doubt she'll have a problem with any of her friends who actually treat her as such informing you of just how ignorantly hypocritical an egomaniac you are.

[ladyamda.livejournal.com]

How am I hypocritical?
And I don't mind that all of you call me egotistical/egomaniac/whatever. I'd rather think highly of myself and actual like myself rather than be all mopey and depressed.

[greyepsilon.livejournal.com]

I think an oriental proverb counters perfectly what you're asking rhetorically: 'People who fly their kites fast run out of string faster.'

[ladyamda.livejournal.com]

Well, I'm glad I'm not oriental then.
And the only question I asked was how I was being hypocritical. In which your post explained nothing.

[greyepsilon.livejournal.com]

Yes, that was before I woke up and realized your being egotistical was not being debated. That post is rather invalid now, heh.

[ladyamda.livejournal.com]

We all have our brain fart moments.
Totally off topic, but... what's that in your icon?

[greyepsilon.livejournal.com]

Solid Snake from MGS fame. :)

[greyepsilon.livejournal.com]

First off, you're really egotisical if you're trying to prove that your purpose is to 'to show that I'm hardly affected by all of this and to piss people off further' by trying to strike a low blow first into Sarah. A side note: I've never been this calm and confident about a debate for a long while now.

My second point: personally, I'm not entirely happy she had sex either, but am I going to bitch at her because she made a connection and ran with it? Hell no. I'm going to be her friend and listen to her about what she did and whatever else she wants to talk about. Her life is her own, while I can be there for her and advise her, she will never live by my standards all the time. Just because she stooped below yours doesn't give you the right to attack her for it. It never should.

[ladyamda.livejournal.com]

I got the point that I'm egotistical and I'm fine with you calling me that. I just want to know how I'm being hypocritical.

And in response to your second paragraph. I don't know if it's because I was brought up with a family chock full of morals or what, but I highly disapprove of premarital sex. Especially with people you barely know. I think that if you read my previous posts, you'd know that.

I just can't handle a friend with no self-control. I also can't handle the fact that she forced herself (and by force I mean beg) on Russel then spread it around to all her friends. I think that personal life should remain personal. Not everyone wants to hear about how you sucked cock or yadda yadda.

Granted, I'm not happy with the way Russel treated the situation. He should've stuck to no and not give in. If you don't want to have sex, any form of it, then you don't want to have sex.

Yeah, I am a bitch and whatever other name you want to call me. But I never leave without a bang.

[greyepsilon.livejournal.com]

I know where you're coming from on the morals platform. I've been raised in a fairly well-to-do middle class family, and only recently have started to 'condescend' if only barely without drastic changes.

I also agree on how a personal life should remain personal. But 'personal' is defined on a per-case basis and that definition is at the complete discretion of whoever's personal life it is. If she wanted to tell some people and not others, then she wanted to tell some people and not others. There are obviously different levels of trust that exist and a blogging system that never does what you want it to do when you really need it to do so.

But it was her choice to become so compelled to do so, and Russel's decision about whether or not to stand up to his beliefs or personal standards. They should live and die by their own actions, don't you think so? We are not to judge them until we get a gravel or that letter to go to jury duty, alright?

[niiea.livejournal.com]

You can shove your morals down your throat. You may have been brought up with "morals" but no one taught you respect.

You have no self-control with your ranting!

I've already come up with two reasons why you're hypocritical.

First, you bash Sarah for having no morals and no self-control but you have no respect for anyone, and your morals are in the trash. Morally, you should respect people! But you don't. Second, you don't have self-control either. You let curses out with no worry (I personally don't have a problem with it, just proving a point.) andddddddd you're just a bitch. So...

Sadly, my dear, you ARE a hypocrite.

Plus!!! I couldn't hear your bang. Mine will be louder. Wheeeee.

[BIGGEST LOUDEST BANG EVER]

[ladyamda.livejournal.com]

Umm... I'm having trouble understanding you. Maybe I should tell you that hypocritical basically means telling someone not to do something then turn around and do it yourself.

I never told anyone to respect others or have self-control. I only frowned on it.

And as for swearing, I've only done it so far to repeat what people have said or to call myself a bitch. So I've said one curse word. And if you really want to prove your point, please reread Sarah's post. You'll find it full of curse words.

Please come up with a LOGICAL excuse for me being a hypocrite.

And, grow up a bit before taking me on. Seriously, you sound like a child. Perhaps you are, I wouldn't know.

Also, if you would find it in your heart to stop replying to my posts. If I'm to argue, I want a bit of a challenge. One that you aren't providing.

[niiea.livejournal.com]

I said I have no problem with cursing. You were just boasting about your perfect morals and upbringing and wanted to point that out.
I was being perfectly logical. I'm not going to explain it more. Too lazy.
I told you not to bring up maturity. You shouldn't speak of it.

You need to lighten up and live a little and stop putting yourself in terribly bad situations making people who don't even KNOW you dislike you.

My last comment. Fuck you, you fucking bitch..

NO! One more comment. It's really funny how everyone takes these things so seriously. How everyone is sitting in front of their computers refreshing this post. Oh man, it really tickles me.

[ladyamda.livejournal.com]

*shrugs* You really are a child. Pity. It would've been fun to argue, if only you were a bit more.... witty.

Funny, how you tell me to lighten up. "Fuck you, you fucking bitch..."? Um... okay. If you say so. Real intelligent there. And so very very insulting. In fact, I'm weeping at your words.

Yeah, it tickles me that you would "Put in your two cents" here without reading the post.

By the way. You were not making any sense, and your excuse 'too lazy' makes me think that you have now way of backing up your comment and are looking for an easy way out.

Please, explain how you were being logical.

And what should I care if you dislike me or not? It doesn't effect me in the least bit.

[niiea.livejournal.com]

I READ THE POST. Enough of you. Enough of this.

STOP REPLYING TO MY POSTS I DON'T WANT THE FUCKING E-MAILS ANYMORE.

Also, saying fuck you is light and cheery enough for me, how about you? Never mind, don't answer.

If you don't want answers don't ask questions.

I make complete sense. You're wrong. That's all. Goodbye!