Does this inactivity make me look like a lazy bum?

[amadeupname]

I hate - hate hate hate hate hate - looking for a job. I already have problems being in public; I feel like everyone is looking at me, it's difficult for me to talk to people I don't know, and I feel that every time I open my mouth I end up making a fool out of myself because I am so horrible at human interaction. Everything I say sounds pathetic and laughable. I don't know if I'm socially inept because I'm so insecure, or if I'm so insecure because I'm socially inept. Going into a store and actively asking for a job seems, to me, to be asking for humiliation. I've gotten looks before from clerks when I asked this question. "You? Get a job here? Yeah, right." That kind of look. It was only once or twice, but it still made me feel like a chump for even trying. I hate being in these situations. I don't know what to say, how to say it, or how to apply for a job and not get disappointed when someone else gets it.

Of course, I'm also rather lazy. I make no secret of that. I'd rather play video games all day than go work in a store or kitchen. But Kingdom Hearts doesn't give me actual money, nor is it a good job reference. Tomorrow I'm definitely going up to the campus and re-checking the computer lab, then asking the library and the dining halls for a job. There's got to be someone who'll hire me there, right? An on-campus job would help a lot. Getting a job downtown means I have to pay to park there, and I don't want to depend on the bus for transportation. And, damnit, I was looking forward to seeing if the downtown library would hire me. That place is really spiffy. I need to take pictures of the kid's section there sometime, so you can all see the stained glass windows.

Speaking of campus, I got a hold of Mary, my roommate, yesterday. Took me two tries, a wrong number, and a call to Mom to reach her, as I wrote the number down wrong and ended up reaching a man who wasn't incredibly rude, but wasn't exactly the nicest person. ("May I speak to Mary ***?" "Who?" "Mary ***?" "You have the wrong number." [Said in a deadpan, no-nonsense, "Get off my phoneline, biotch!" voice.] "Oh.... *click*") She seems pretty nice to me, from the conversation we had. She likes Harry Potter. See, there's something good about her!

Comments

[chunkytomatoes.livejournal.com]

Aw, don't worry. I'm sure you'll find a job somewhere, they can't be that picky. Undoubtedly I'll feel exactly the same on the godforsaken day I go job hunting. >_>

[vadalia.livejournal.com]

As a fellow job-hunter, I feel yourt pain. What I do is look in the paper, find something that'd be ok for me, then call them (even if they say to apply in person, call and ask if the position is still open, or if there's a specific time that good to come in (in case the hirer-er person isn't there sometimes)) That kinda helps me ease into it better than just going up to some place out of the blue and asking if they have any jobs open.

[thesaneminority.livejournal.com]

I think I'll try that, after I exhaust the on-campus positions. Thanks!

[effing-emo.livejournal.com]

A word of advice!

One thing that you need to keep in mind about finding a job is that you're not going to get the one you want on your first try. You need to get experience, even if that means flipping burgers at McDonald's. (Which I suggest going elsewhere... I'll never eat McDonald's again. EVER!) A lot of employers are looking for people who have experience. It doesn't even have to be an actual job. Volunteer work also looks pretty good.

Also, if you're friendly with somebody at a certain work place, and you know that they're doing well there (that is, not slacking off/managers like them) take advantage of that. Ask them if you can write them down as a reference and/or if they'll put in good word for you.

[thesaneminority.livejournal.com]

I was just considering McDonald's, actually. My cousin works there, so she could get me a good reference. And it's better than no job at all. HAS to be better than Dunkin' Donuts. (Don't ever eat at the one on West Ave and North, by the way. Trust me.) Truthfully, I wouldn't mind not ever eating again at McDonald's. Ever seen Supersize Me?

[effing-emo.livejournal.com]

Can't say that I have seen that movie. I worked at the ghetto Prospect McDonald's. Lasted about a month there before I said "EFF YOU BASTARDS! I'M GOING HOME!" They probably put me under 'fired' even though I quit. That job taught me never to work in the ghetto again. (damn ghetto white trash. :( ) However, I know other people who work at other McDonald's and they say that Prospect is the worst one out of all in the Jackson area. Apparently, that's what they talk about at their job.

I don't think I've ever eaten Dunkin' Donuts. I just go to Polly's or Meijer or someplace and buy them their. (probably cheaper too.)

[thesaneminority.livejournal.com]

It's also probably a lot healthier.

Well, there's a McDonald's on Campus at the student center, along with a Little Ceasar's, which would be the easiest to work at as I wouldn't have to run to get my car from Grandma's house. Hopefully there hasn't been a rush of students looking for a job YET. I just have to go soon, or else all the opportunities will be gone. Curse you, First Year Experience!

[effing-emo.livejournal.com]

See if there's a CiCi's around. I like working there. :) Except my manager, but I don't work with her a lot. I get to be with the crazy owners all the time.

[thesaneminority.livejournal.com]

Yay crazy owners! Too bad the guys at Dunkin' Donuts were not crazy, only assholes.

I don't know if there's one on campus, and the thing is, campus jobs are going to be better than off-campus jobs, as I don't have a parking permit and wouldn't use my car much anyway if I did.

[effing-emo.livejournal.com]

Well, if there is a Cici's around, you'll most likely run into John or Craig eventually. I think they run things around there too. Damn rich people.