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I hate - hate hate hate hate hate - looking for a job. I already have problems being in public; I feel like everyone is looking at me, it's difficult for me to talk to people I don't know, and I feel that every time I open my mouth I end up making a fool out of myself because I am so horrible at human interaction. Everything I say sounds pathetic and laughable. I don't know if I'm socially inept because I'm so insecure, or if I'm so insecure because I'm socially inept. Going into a store and actively asking for a job seems, to me, to be asking for humiliation. I've gotten looks before from clerks when I asked this question. "You? Get a job here? Yeah, right." That kind of look. It was only once or twice, but it still made me feel like a chump for even trying. I hate being in these situations. I don't know what to say, how to say it, or how to apply for a job and not get disappointed when someone else gets it.
Of course, I'm also rather lazy. I make no secret of that. I'd rather play video games all day than go work in a store or kitchen. But Kingdom Hearts doesn't give me actual money, nor is it a good job reference. Tomorrow I'm definitely going up to the campus and re-checking the computer lab, then asking the library and the dining halls for a job. There's got to be someone who'll hire me there, right? An on-campus job would help a lot. Getting a job downtown means I have to pay to park there, and I don't want to depend on the bus for transportation. And, damnit, I was looking forward to seeing if the downtown library would hire me. That place is really spiffy. I need to take pictures of the kid's section there sometime, so you can all see the stained glass windows.
Speaking of campus, I got a hold of Mary, my roommate, yesterday. Took me two tries, a wrong number, and a call to Mom to reach her, as I wrote the number down wrong and ended up reaching a man who wasn't incredibly rude, but wasn't exactly the nicest person. ("May I speak to Mary ***?" "Who?" "Mary ***?" "You have the wrong number." [Said in a deadpan, no-nonsense, "Get off my phoneline, biotch!" voice.] "Oh.... *click*") She seems pretty nice to me, from the conversation we had. She likes Harry Potter. See, there's something good about her!
Of course, I'm also rather lazy. I make no secret of that. I'd rather play video games all day than go work in a store or kitchen. But Kingdom Hearts doesn't give me actual money, nor is it a good job reference. Tomorrow I'm definitely going up to the campus and re-checking the computer lab, then asking the library and the dining halls for a job. There's got to be someone who'll hire me there, right? An on-campus job would help a lot. Getting a job downtown means I have to pay to park there, and I don't want to depend on the bus for transportation. And, damnit, I was looking forward to seeing if the downtown library would hire me. That place is really spiffy. I need to take pictures of the kid's section there sometime, so you can all see the stained glass windows.
Speaking of campus, I got a hold of Mary, my roommate, yesterday. Took me two tries, a wrong number, and a call to Mom to reach her, as I wrote the number down wrong and ended up reaching a man who wasn't incredibly rude, but wasn't exactly the nicest person. ("May I speak to Mary ***?" "Who?" "Mary ***?" "You have the wrong number." [Said in a deadpan, no-nonsense, "Get off my phoneline, biotch!" voice.] "Oh.... *click*") She seems pretty nice to me, from the conversation we had. She likes Harry Potter. See, there's something good about her!
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I don't know if there's one on campus, and the thing is, campus jobs are going to be better than off-campus jobs, as I don't have a parking permit and wouldn't use my car much anyway if I did.
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