ARG.

[amadeupname]

Shit. SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT.

Boys suck. Life sucks. I hate hate hate hate HATE FUCKING HATE this. And now, even though I didn't want to, I really, really, REALLY hate her. I don't even know her. I flipped through her LJ and posted something neutral just to be nice and show that I sort of didn't mind and now I have to take it back because I fucking DO! And why oh fucking WHY did he have to keep bringing it up and then mention Nick and how I kept talking about him and how that kept him from saying anything? WHY THE FUCKING HELL DOES ALL THIS KIND OF SHIT HAPPEN TO ME?!

Comments

[greyepsilon.livejournal.com]

Because nobody is perfect. Ever.

[thesaneminority.livejournal.com]

That's all you have to say?

You said you didn't want to hurt me, but it's FAR too late for that. If you didn't want to hurt me, you would have shut your mouth and quit apoligizing and treating me like every time you mention her I'm going to break into a thousand pieces. Don't treat me like nothing happened, damnit.

Yes, I'm angry. And I'm sorry. But you are just as much to blame as I am.

[greyepsilon.livejournal.com]

I know you're angry and you should be feeling that way, you don't have to apologize for feeling angry.

Otherwise, I'm at a loss for words.

If you wanna talk, I'll be here, but I'm not going to force conversation down your throat.

[some2else.livejournal.com]

First off, you're letting jealousy consume you. From experience, this is the absolute worst thing you can do, as once you fall into a jealousy rut it is extremely hard to climb back out on your own.

So you lost one. There will be another. I don't mean to sound cold; I in fact mean to be encouraging. And hey, look at it this way - he'll most likely break up with her, as high school relationships don't tend to last, and now he knows you have something for him.

[greyepsilon.livejournal.com]

Yes, but see that now I know how she feels/felt, one could speculate that I could rebound into her. And I don't want to rebound into her at all. I had something to develop and I blew it on a feeling.

Besides, I'm an idiot with relationships anyway, the anger laced in the journal entry supports the argument of my true ineptness no matter if I hide it at other times or not.

[some2else.livejournal.com]

... Didn't realize it was you at the time I said that. And rebounds can lead to good relationships, too. Yeah, they don't usually last. But neither do other types.

And we're all idiots in relationships. The only way to not be an idiot is to learn from all the mistakes you make.

[greyepsilon.livejournal.com]

I've never seen a good 'rebound' play out, so I wouldn't know what exactly I should do in such a situation anyways. Play it by ear I suppose.

And I try to learn from my mistakes. But every mistake I make seems to be in the wake of trying to be courteous and respectful in my point of view. Some respect I'm showing alright.

[ladyamda.livejournal.com]

Pay me ten dollars and I'll kill someone for you. It's the Jennie way!

[greyepsilon.livejournal.com]

That price seems about right. Maybe I'll be dead by the end of the day.

[ladyamda.livejournal.com]

Pay me ten dollars and I'll be your body guard. It's the Jennie way!

[thesaneminority.livejournal.com]

Oh, yeah, what happened to loyalty to your friends, Jen, huh? =P

Look, Brad, I'm not really mad anymore... I'm just tired. I'm tired of people passing me over for someone prettier, smarter, skinnier, whatever; tired of feeling like shit, tired of hating myself, tired of being alone, tired of only being able to find guys online who are either taken and/or too far away to make much of a difference. I really like you, but you've got Meagan now. Don't worry about me.

[greyepsilon.livejournal.com]

I know you're tired of being alone, Sarah. I will still worry about you... but I understand what you're saying when you don't want me to at all.

At the very least, I'll keep you in my prayers, as I always have.

I'm at your mercy when you would like to talk to me again.

[ladyamda.livejournal.com]

Dude, what did I tell you before? Quite being all depressed! Pay me 10 bucks and I'll send you through boot camp.

[greyepsilon.livejournal.com]

Heh, I'd rather fend for myself, thanks anyways.

[ladyamda.livejournal.com]

I want some money! *Cries* I am Jennie, the evil elite assasin ninja! And yet I am broke... T_T

[greyepsilon.livejournal.com]

*he shifts his stance and opens his wallet, pulling out several small sheets of green, tossing them at her* Well, now you'll be an evil elite assassin ninja.

[ladyamda.livejournal.com]

Hurray! Jennie has some cash! *wanders off**two minutes later* I'm broke again... can I have some more?

[greyepsilon.livejournal.com]

*he pulls out a few more sheets of green for her* I'm feeling charitable today. That's it for today though. I'm seriously going to be broke myself, heh.

[ladyamda.livejournal.com]

*needs to find new profession* The uber elite assasin ninja just ain't cutting it... -_-;

[greyepsilon.livejournal.com]

Well, you seem to be a fine friend to Sarah. *throws more money out as if he's not thinking about it anymore* More power to ya~

[ladyamda.livejournal.com]

Yay! *greedily snatches it up.* White Power!!!
Oh... wait... this isn't the Chappelle show...

[thesaneminority.livejournal.com]

XD

Sillyheads. ::gives you both money:: Hush uppa your face!

[ladyamda.livejournal.com]

I'm Rick James bitch! Can't tell me what to do.