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I was just at the Thunderbird, enjoying one of their French sodas. Before I came in I witnessed a guy that looks like my stepdad walking inside. I don't remember his name, but Jessica introduced us, and mentioned I was single (curse her!), on New Year's Eve. I've only seen him once or twice after that. He's not a bad person, but he's slightly creepy, obviously socially inept (more so than I am, hard as that might be to believe), and has a lazy eye that's kind of unsettling. Not wanting to really talk to him, I put my hood up and went inside to just sit, have a soda, and surf the web on my laptop.
All was going well until he headed for the door and saw my face under the hood. (I knew I should have faced the door!) So he sat down, and Dad called and saved me from having to stay until closing, since we're having dinner in a bit, and then we got into some conversation about fathers, with him telling me to spend time with my father and then getting into how his father abused him. I kept thinking "Why are you telling me this? You keep saying you don't want to get into it -- AND THEN YOU DO. Make up your mind!"
... And then he said, "I know we've only known each other for a little while, and we're friends and I don't want to mess that up, but you're kind of cute." I groaned inwardly, thanked him, and told him that right now I'm too busy for a relationship. Then I said that I had to get going, because I had a lot of errands to run before I got home, and he said, "Are you sure you're not leaving to get rid of me?"
Well, what was I supposed to say to that? "Yes, now would you excuse me while I flee?" I made up some excuse about having to pick up a lot of stuff and getting stuff done tonight so I don't have to rush tomorrow, and ran out. But he insisted on a "friendly hug" first. And then he said "I love you," and added "in a friendly way" really fast after that. I just kind of smiled, walked out the door, and then dashed to the car and shuddered all the way home.
What am I supposed to do when a guy's interested and he just creeps me out? Hell, what is it about me that attracts the creeps and the assholes and the really fucking weird guys?! WHY CAN'T I FIND A NORMAL GUY TO ASSOCIATE WITH?!
All was going well until he headed for the door and saw my face under the hood. (I knew I should have faced the door!) So he sat down, and Dad called and saved me from having to stay until closing, since we're having dinner in a bit, and then we got into some conversation about fathers, with him telling me to spend time with my father and then getting into how his father abused him. I kept thinking "Why are you telling me this? You keep saying you don't want to get into it -- AND THEN YOU DO. Make up your mind!"
... And then he said, "I know we've only known each other for a little while, and we're friends and I don't want to mess that up, but you're kind of cute." I groaned inwardly, thanked him, and told him that right now I'm too busy for a relationship. Then I said that I had to get going, because I had a lot of errands to run before I got home, and he said, "Are you sure you're not leaving to get rid of me?"
Well, what was I supposed to say to that? "Yes, now would you excuse me while I flee?" I made up some excuse about having to pick up a lot of stuff and getting stuff done tonight so I don't have to rush tomorrow, and ran out. But he insisted on a "friendly hug" first. And then he said "I love you," and added "in a friendly way" really fast after that. I just kind of smiled, walked out the door, and then dashed to the car and shuddered all the way home.
What am I supposed to do when a guy's interested and he just creeps me out? Hell, what is it about me that attracts the creeps and the assholes and the really fucking weird guys?! WHY CAN'T I FIND A NORMAL GUY TO ASSOCIATE WITH?!
