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[amadeupname]

Been thinking. Want to kill Dad.

Dumbass promises he won't drink when I'm around. Turns around, gets drunk, bitches at me and forgets all about it when I get home from work. And this is an episode that had me screaming and crying to myself, beatingmy legs with my fists while I hid in the bathroom taking a shower, because I'm too chickenshit to do anything about the situation.

Jan says that the longest he ever went without drinking for her was three days. THREE FUCKING DAYS. And I have another year before I can get out of here. Hell, right now I don't care if I go to college or not. I need out of here, away from this jackhole... If I can, I'll move in with a friend. Like I could. Grar.

Let me take this awkward saw
And run it against your thighs
Cut some flesh away
I'll carry this piece of you with me
Because all I can say tonight
is that I hate you
But it would be all right
If we could see each other sometime
If I could somehow make you mine
And if not I'll take my rusty spoons
And dig out your blue eyes
I'll swallow them down to my colon
They're gonna burn like hell tonight
Because you're beautiful
Just not on the inside
Light comes from within
And your beaming eyes don't seem so bright
My heart is on the floor
Why don't you step on it?
When I think of all the things you've done
Boardwalks and breaking waves
Made our Saturdays
I'd buy you lemonade right now
if you were here
But then I'd throw it in your face
And I'd listen to you cry
And I'd remember how I miss
our nights under ocean skies
You and I are like when fire
and the ocean floor collide.

Saves the Day ~ Rocks Tonic Juice Magic