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[amadeupname]

Don: ok, i kinda have soemthin to say about last night and today...
Don: it all felt really wierd...
Me: ???
Don: i dunno...somethin just didnt feel right about it...
Me: How so?
Don: i dunno...
Me: And I know what you're talking about, it did seem kinda... off.
Me: You think maybe it was because I was sneaking around?
Don: i mean, i dont wanna hurt your feelings...but can we just like...keep this on a friend type basis...like...not fuck buddies...or whatever it is...?
Me: *sigh* yeah.
Don: sorry:(
Me: Hey, it's okay. Can I ask why though?
Don: it just doesnt feel right...
Me: What, the sex?
Don: yeah...
Don: i mean...its fun...but its just...wierd
Me: Wierd as in you'd rather be with someone else, or wierd because there's not much there besides the sex?
Don: both...if ya know what i mean
Me: ...
Me: yeah.
Don: im sorry if this is hurting your feelings...
Me: Honestly, I'd rather you told me what you felt/wanted than not say anything because you didn't want to hurt my feelings.
Don: k...
Me: If you were just worried about the fact that all we've done is pretty much have sex, I could just tell you that, well, I like you. A lot. I wouldn't drive an hour out of my way to risk my parents finding out and grounding me until I'm 80 just for sex.
Me: But, well... heh.
Me: Guess that's not gonna make it all better.
Don: yeah...
Don: can we change the subject please?
Me: sure. Whaddya wanna talk about?
Don: i dunno, i redyed my hair
Me: what color?
Don: black
Me: again?
Don: yup
Me: heh
Me: it looked fine.
Me: *hgus*
Me: *hugs
Don: :P
Me: goddamnit I can't type
Don: so when are you gonna have the pics uploaded and shit?
Me: Friday. All the stuff's at my dad's.
Don: aight
Don: cool shit
Me: heh.
Me: So. Happy birthday then.
Don: thanks:P
Me: I'm expecting something from ya for mine :-d
Don: wen is yours?
Me: June 21
Don: aight
Me: =P
Me: Hell, just draw me somethin'
Don: :P
Don: aight
Me: woohoo
Me: *pokes you in the head*
Don: aight, well...i gotta get goin now
Me: okay. Later.
Don: bye
Me: bye

*sigh* I guess I was stupid. I mean... I like this guy. And I thought... I thought he might like me too. Shit, I knew I shouldn't have asked him if he did earlier. I mean, I know it probably wasn't going to amount to anything, but still...

Take a photograph,
It'll be the last,
Not a dollar or a crowd could ever keep me here,

I don't have a past
I just have a chance,
Not a family or honest plea remains to say,

Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.

Is it you I want,
or just the notion of
a heart to wrap around so I can find my way around

Safe to say from here,
You're getting closer now,
We are never sad 'cause we are not allowed to be

Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.

Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.

To lie here under you,
is all that I could ever do,
To lie here under you is all,
To lie here under you
is all that I could ever do,
To lie here under you is all,

Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.

Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun,
All the world is waiting for the sun,
All the world is waiting for the sun.

Breaking Benjamin ~ Rain