Angsty!Sarah. Joy.

[amadeupname]

All I ever really, really wanted was someone to love me, without having to conform to impossibly high standards, or change who I was; someone to spend time with, who made me feel comfortable. Hell, I don't even want sex all that much, just someone to kiss and hold hands with once in a while. And when I find that person... I get shot down. I'm "just a friend", and that's the best scenario, mind you. Maybe it's karma for refusing the few boys who actually showed interest in me. Maybe whatever deity or force of nature that exists has a fucked up sense of humor, and I'm the punch line to every joke. All I know is I'm apparently not of interest to anybody; there's always someone better, someone prettier, funnier, cuter, smarter, more petite. Always someone more suited to whomever I express an interest in.

There's no such thing as a soulmate. Out of the teeming masses, it's impossible to find "the one"; it's all a matter of luck.

I'm holding on
Waiting for your call
It's simple but I can't explain this
I'm sinking down
I feel like I could die
I'm falling off, I don't know why

I still believe it when you say
It's another perfect day, another perfect day
I still believe it when you say
It's another perfect day, another perfect day

So I might try
To leave it all behind
I know tomorrow's not so bright now
I say goodbye
Cuz nothing good can last
You wear and fade; you're nowhere fast
 
But today
I don't know how
To keep it all inside
But I guess I'll let it slide

I still believe it when you say
It's another perfect day, another perfect day
I still believe it when you say
It's another perfect day, another perfect day

And today
I don't know why
I thought that it was real
But I guess it's no big deal

I still believe it when you say
It's another perfect day, another perfect day
I still believe it when you say
It's another perfect day, another perfect day.

Comments

[greyepsilon.livejournal.com]

:( *hug*

[thesaneminority.livejournal.com]

*snuggles* Thankies. I am Jack's broken emo heart ;_;

[greyepsilon.livejournal.com]

Emo is not cool. Don't be slittin' yer wrists.

Being emotional, however, is perfectly fine. *squeezehug*

[maxpegasus.livejournal.com]

I don't agree. I think there's such things as a soulmate, but that you have to shift through a lot of bad experiences and heartbreak to find them.

When you find them, you forget all about that bad crap and focus on the good.

Believe me, you're a great girl. One of the interesting ones, eh? - You've got a personality. That's a rare thing, these days.