Memes and weird dreams.

First the meme.

If there is someone on your friends list you would like to take, strip naked, tie them to a bed post, lick them until they scream, then fuck them until both of you are senseless and unable to fuck anymore, then wait about five minutes and do it all over again, then post this exact sentence in YOUR journal.

Now the dream:

So I dreamed that Nick drove over to my house to hang out and spend the night (not that way, you pervs). He brought a video game magazine with him, and some entries for this contest he was holding, and I read through the magazine and entries and decided I'd enter the contest, only later.

Then the dream cut to the next morning. Nick was taking a shower and I was looking all over the house for him because I wanted to talk to him and get a ride to school. I looked in my dad's room, which was all dark, and started calling for Nick because I thought he was in there, but I didn't get an answer. Then I went outside and he was in his car with some girl in his passenger seat. I went over to his side of the car and started pounding on his window. The perspective switched so that I saw myself from inside the car, and I looked like some blue-haired anime chick. Nick pretty much said that he never wanted to speak to me again and drove off.

What it's about? I think it has something to do with the fact that I'm scared that if I tell people (especially people I'm interested in) how I feel, they'll leave and I'll be alone again. And I don't want to be alone again. Hell, I'm already alone. I mean, not completely, because I have a lot of great friends whom I love with all my heart, but at some point I'm still alone. This is why I spend so much time by myself. When I'm with my friends, I have a lot of fun, but then when we all go home I feel so lonely I want to cry. I don't have that connection with anyone in my family. The closest I can get to that is my mom, and we don't have the same kind of relationship I have with my friends, you know?

More on this later. School's starting.

(no subject)

So, yeah. Being lonely and junk. Or just fear of being alone. I mean, I can't deal with myself by myself, if that makes any fucking sense. I want... I dunno. I think I want someone to help me understand myself. I KNOW I want someone to understand me and love me, so that I don't feel like I can't be loved. But is that selfish? Am I wrong for wanting to feel loved before I feel I am capable of loving myself?

Memes are good. *dies*

If you were in a Role-Playing Game... by Brian Ellingar
Username
Character's Name
Gender	MaleFemale
Your Hair would be...	a Neon Green Mullet
Your Clothing would be...	Heavy Armor with a Spikey Shield
Your Race would be...	Harpy
You would weild a...	Bombs. XD
You would fall in love with...	johnny_c
Your best friend would be...	jasterville
Your arch-nemesis would be	dyne_the_lonely
Chance that you'll save the world: 21%
Chance that you'll die in the final battle: 7%
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A very "special" dictionary. by lily22
Look up:
Definition:	The sound made thousands of hairy little legs crawling up one's nose. (The screaming sound that follows is not part of it.)
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Your Sexy Kink by Brian Ellingar
Name
Age
Gender	MaleFemaleOther
Preference	MenWomenBothOther
You are a...	Jack of all Trades ;)
You like it best...	Doggie Style
You like to use...	Sharp, Pointy Objects
Your biggest kink is...	Roleplaying ;)
Percent of this that's true...: 50%
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Now THIS is interesting...

LJ Friends Meme by coolerq

• You must tell 9 people about this game.
• Brad is the one that you love.
• Nick is one you like but can't work out.
• You care most about Jessica.
• Sam is the one who knows you very well.
• Ricky is your lucky star.
• Iris is the song that matches with Brad.
• Rain is the song for Nick.
• Blow Me Away is the song that tells you most about YOUR mind.
• and She Will Be Loved is the song telling you how you feel about life
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But I don't know. 9 people in one hour? I can't access my email from here and I won't be able to till about 3:30 or 4 pm. Heh. I guess it's a good thing I wished for something impossible. Still, I think I'll maybe just comment on certain people's journals. That counts. Right?

(no subject)

Regards to Sax.

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*sigh*

I miss Nick calling me Princess.